I had my next blog post in the works (and it’s a good one!) but something happened this morning that halted everything in it’s tracks…. Part of this is hard for me to write about, part is just so amazingly tear jerking.
For the past couple months every spare penny (and right now there aren’t a lot of those) has been going towards Christmas shopping for my kids. We don’t do a huge Christmas money wise, but the kids do just fine. There are a lot of them though so it adds up. 9 stockings. Need I say more?? It’s hard for me to admit that I can’t just get what I want when I want. I make lists, prioritize them and check them off a little at a time. Struggling financially is hard for me as I’m sure it is for any of us. My kids know things are tight financially, but they also know they don’t go without and I think it’s a good balance.
I need new running shoes. It’s becoming an issue. I log a lot of miles and wring out every last drop of usefulness that I can. I’ve been in 3 drawings in the last 6 weeks at Reno Running Company and crossed my fingers that I’d win a new pair to relieve that financial burden but my name never got drawn. I simply cannot get them now because it would take away from my children’s Christmas. For now if I want something it goes on a separate list. The “after the first of the year” list. That’s where running shoes are.
Brianna – my 20 year old – works at Reno Running Company so she knows all my shoe favorites, my size, etc… and she’s on the same running team as I am. This morning, she made breakfast and whipped up extra for me. Scrambled egg whites with salsa and avocado and half a bagel. Yes, she is that awesome. When I sat down (and it was a slightly frazzled morning today) she told me to close my eyes. I did. She ran out of the room to get something and when she came back, she said “Mom, I have your Christmas present. I know it’s early but I don’t want to wait. I love you and I hope it’s what you want.” I opened my eyes and these were nestled in their box…
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ME!!!!!!!!!!! It made me feel great that she saw a practical need and turned it into a present. That’s my favorite! I felt sad that she knows how much I needed them and couldn’t afford to get them myself but that went away as soon as I began caressing them…… Sadly, I had to go to work and couldn’t take off for a run, but perhaps later today….. Wow, I really, really love my kids.